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here we go with celeb deaths again (RIP)

2009-12-29T06:25:35Z

DUDE WHAT.

Ok so I don't know how many of you peeps listen to Avenged Sevenfold, but their drummer, The Rev (real name James Sullivan) is dead. I guess he was found dead in his house in Huntington Beach, CA. Died of natural causes, or so they say. I just read about it now, so apparently no one knows much.

But just thought I'd make that known, in case anyone cared. Cross your fingers that all these celebrity deaths end in 09, and don't continue into '10.

o.O

Rest In Peace The Rev. We're gonna miss ya dude. Keep drummin in the Afterlife.

(sorry, had to throw that in there)

xxNell

Writer's Block: That's a wrap!

2009-12-26T00:03:32Z

Do you have any holiday traditions that extend all the way back to childhood? How about family recipes? What are they?

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We make these cookies called "kipples"- my dad used to jokingly call them "kibbles"- like what you feed your dog! He sometimes still does, haha :)

Anyway, its basically butter, flour, a bit of salt, sugar, and chopped almonds. You mix it together with your hands (the butter has to be kind of soft for this) until it has the consistency of crumbs. Then you mold the dough into three or four big balls of dough, and let it sit for a few hours in the fridge, covered with saran wrap or something of that sort.

Then later, when the dough has hardened, you take/cut off pieces and turn them into little crescent moons, bake them (for a very short amount of time, I forget exactly how long), and then roll them in a bowl of powdered sugar (in which, we put a vanilla bean for flavor), and serve! They're SOOO good. If anyone wants the exact recipe, let me know and I can get it for you :)

Merry Christmas!

xxNell

Merry Christmas!!!!

2009-12-25T04:01:03Z

I know this is an old photo buuut,

From Gaelin and me, Merry Christmas everyone!! Stay safe and warm, and Happy Holidays! <3

xxNell

HOLY COW SUPER COOL

2009-12-24T02:30:09Z

OK SO THIS IS SUPER COOL I THINK. in my opinion anyway, haha.

ANYWAY. I emailed To Write Love On Her Arms, about a shirt idea I had gotten after reading an article on the high suicide rate of US soldiers and even the recruiting officers. My idea was to have an army green/camoflauge green background with the words "You Are Not Alone" on it in white, or possibly yellow (cuse of the whole yellow ribbon = troop support thing).

I didn't really expect to get a response.

I GOT A RESPONSE.

here's what they said:

" Hey Nellie,

Thank you so much for your suggestion. Our armed troops that are lost to suicide are very important to us and we are trying to think of some new ideas and shirt designs to honor them and show our support. We appreciate your idea and will add it our list! Thank you so much for your support!

With Hope,
TWLOHA "

HOW COOL IS THAT? My best friend and I were talking about how neat it would be if they used it, and if they mass produced it, etc etc.

Wishful thinking probably, but it never hurts to dream. It'd be cool =]

anyway, I still have some stuff to do around the house, but there shall be more tomorrow and on Christmas!

stay safe everyone!!

xxNell

ps- i should mention, in regards to my last post: after falling asleep and waking up the next morning (which was yesterday), things and life signifcantly improved. I'll elaborate tomorrow sometime most likely. :]

a wee bit of venting...

2009-12-22T03:37:35Z

-freezing my ass off

-felt like shit all day and still do

-and been getting one word answers all day long. and its kind of starting to piss me off.

i think i need to sleep again and hopefully start over in the morning.

thats all.

love nellie

irishsaints @ 2009-12-20T20:51:00

2009-12-21T01:51:26Z

well....same old same old when it comes to having brothers around. domination of the conversation, making fun of my boyfriend, and i generally get forgotten. plus plans get made OVER mine. fan freaking tastic. yup. same old same old.

ow..

2009-12-20T22:28:26Z

so just fyi, trying to teach oneself how to snowboard on one of those sleds that look like boogie boards? not so smart. my ass and back hurts, and i may have potentially fractured my wrist? it doesnt hurt as much as it did earlier, but it still hurts like a bitch...not swollen tho, so idk. just..yeah, dont try that. wait til ya got a real snowboard. love nell

believers never die<3

2009-12-20T00:33:01Z

for most of you, this probably won't interest you. but, i just need to say this. I would like to thank Fall Out Boy for everything they've done, and for all the years of music they've given us. Patrick Stump, Joe Trohman, Pete Wentz, and Andy Hurley. you four guys got me through a lot of good, and a lot of bad, and a lot of amazing times with some amazing people. I, like everyone else who have been fans of yours through the years, am going to miss you dearly. best of luck. Believers Never Die.

EDIT: ITS JUST A BREAK, THEY'RE NOT GONE FOR GOOD.

ok. not as freaked now. my bad.

oy vey..

2009-12-16T12:30:55Z

made it through the night. went out with the bf and friends last night and had a few drags of his cigarette (i should point out i dont normally smoke- i like my lungs thanks very much) plus drank half a mountain dew and a full monster. so to say the least, i was buzzing with energy in my head/body last night and it took me til 3am to fall asleep. with a lot of tough thoughts. i thought i had beaten the darkness, but i guess the darkness finds ways to creep in when you don't expect it.

wanna get love tattooed somewhere. idk where though, and idk how. i want it to be cool, and i want it to mean something. i dont want it to just be there ya know?

hey now, the past is told by those who win my darling, what matters is what hasn't been. hey now, we're wide awake and we're thinking, my darling- believe your voice can mean something.

-futures, jimmy eat world.

i really like the last line- "believe your voice can mean something"

i also have this other idea, something i drew up in india. its a wordart drawing, which i did a lot of. the whole thing says "SUICIDE is not a disease. you won't catch it from being next to me. RESCUE IS POSSIBLE. END THE FEAR."

the idea stemmed from the thought that people are afraid to talk about things like depression and suicide and suicidal thoughts. but to talk about it means to get it out there, to get it off your chest, and to clear the elephant that you feel is in the room. for some of us, talking about it talks us out of it. it helps and it saves us. so talking about it is good. people are afraid to, because those who feel these things don't know how to approach the subject, and don't know who they can trust or who won't judge them. and the people who listen don't always know what to say. i don't blame them. its not an easy topic. but by talking about it, you can help someone- and sometimes, you might just save their lives.

so i want to get "end the fear" tattooed somewhere with either "twloha" or "to write love on her arms" somewhere underneath it. or something related to to write love on her arms. some people don't always know why i believe so much in them- its because TWLOHA is inspiration to find help, find hope, and to give light to the darkness. to not let the darkness win. and because i know what its like to be there. to be in that position where you feel totally helpless. rescue. hope. love. all these things are possible.

stop the bleeding. rescue is possible. love is the movement.

hope everyone is doing well.

loveyou.

xxNell

hello hello :]

2009-12-16T04:32:34Z

hello my darlings!!!

i do hope everyone is well this holiday season! while i am still jetlagged, i just had a monster import and a night out with some awesome friends, so im in a particularly good mood :) :)

of course, i have a question for all of you: i have a friend who is willing to give me a tattoo (he's licensed, etc etc, so no worries)- technically he only does 18+ but he said since i just got back from india, he might be willing to do a tattoo for me. i want to do something on my hip, but im afraid it might show up later, and i'd get in trouble with my parents (cuse i said i wouldnt tattoo before i was 18, but im rebelling, as per normal haha)

so, does anyone have suggestions as to where i could get a smallish tattoo where it would be invisible to parents? also any ideas on smallish type tattoos i could get?? :)

soonish i will have a link to photos from india- theres a lot of them!!

lots of lovee

xxNell :]

home again home again

2009-12-14T23:57:43Z

heyy everyone!

i just wanted to let you guys know that i am home from india- although it started out rough, it ended up being an amazing experience, and im so glad i stayed through the rest of the semester. im not going back for the second semester, but i am really glad i made it as far as i did :]

anyway, i wil try to keep updating here, but i also have another blog on a different website and im still recuperating, so we'll see.

in the mean time, hope all is well for everyone!!

<3

heyy

2009-08-13T15:30:58Z

long time no update.

things here in india are...meh, i suppose. trying to keep an open mind, but its harder and harder each day.

mostly, things dont seem worth it without him. some people say its unhealthy to be that close, but he's my entire world, and without him is like...a part of me is gone, and its killing me slowly. more on this another day possibly. tomorrow maybe, when its the weekend.

i love you <3

xxxNell

im aliveee!

2009-08-02T04:46:12Z

heyy all,

just wanted to let you guys know im alive and safe and sound in india. its wild here, and im very homesick, but hopefully things will get better. will update soon when i have more time.

much love

<3you

Nell

woah. (india)

2009-07-28T12:52:52Z

um. holy shit. im leaving for india today. in 3 hours and ten minutes, we leave for the airport. in 5 hours and 55 minutes, i have to be at the ticket counter, in my hideous orange shirt. in 8 hours and 15 minutes, i will be on the plane to india.

holy. fucking. shit.

when did this day get here so fast? i have to go finish packing. o.O

i love you <3

~Nell

huh.

2009-07-24T12:35:43Z

you're right. Someday came suddenly...too suddenly. and now i dont know what to do with it. or about it. and im scared. very scared. guess i have to give it a shot. its never felt right to me though. and i know its never felt right to you either.

whatever happens, i love you.
<3
~Nell

BONUS!

2009-07-21T23:33:46Z

BONUS: BLOCK ISLAND TOMORROW WITH THE BOYFRIEND! :D

that totally just made things a whole lot better. :)

loveyouu.
<3
xxxNell

cowgirls dont cry.

2009-07-21T21:49:54Z

ever get the feeling that what you've chosen, or where you're going, isn't right? like it was the wrong decision?

irishsaints @ 2009-07-20T23:43:00

2009-07-21T03:45:08Z

im so ridiculously fed up with my parents and so not ready for anything life is about to hand me. aka india. everything in my gut says dont go. its been saying that for a while. i think i need to listen to it. above everything else, trust yourself.

i love you, more than you can imagine.

xxx Nell.

dear friends.

2009-07-20T05:05:31Z

i know most of us are responsible people, and dont do dumb things a lot.

but please, always be careful when you drive?

and dont drive when you're drunk. even after one drink.

it really worries me. i just pray a lot, but it worries me.

ok, thanks.

i love you!
<3
Nell

t-minus...

2009-07-19T02:38:36Z

...9 days to India. havent started packing. not sure how i feel right now. somewhere between excited, nervous, and anxious.

apologies for the major lack of updates.

montana photos here: www.facebook.com/whos.the.best

lemme know if you guys cant see that for some reason or another...i'd post pics, but theres WAY too many. i dont have the patience right now, haha.

planning a trip to six flags tomorrrow maybe? *knock on wood* then ians party with jeff...

so yeah...short, and sweet. mucho love!

Nell

Writer's Block: The Best

2009-07-17T18:06:00Z

What's the best thing you've seen or done this month?

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Gone to Montana and seen Buffalo, Elk, Coyotes, Elk and Deer carcases, and Eagles.

:D

home!

2009-07-16T18:59:54Z

just wanted to let you all know I'm home from Montana and had a WONDERFUL time. pictures soon, once i get them all from my brother's computer. unfortunately i never had cell service, so if anyone tried to reach me, i didn't get any messages :/

also, could i ask you guys to say a quick prayer for a friend of mine? she cut herself again..and hit an artery this time. i'm very worried about her, and she's currently back at the uhm...well, i dont want to call it a psych hospital, but the place is called Juniper Hill I think. anyway, she's in desperate need of prayers and good thoughts to get well again. thanks guys.

much love to all of you

Nell

Writer's Block: Dog Day Afternoon

2009-07-03T13:25:35Z

The Dog Days of summer, the hottest days of the year in the Northern Hemisphere, start today. What's your favorite thing to do in hot weather?

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Stick my head in a bucket.

...no, seriously. :D my friends and I do it at the barn all the time. We fill up buckets, then dunk our heads in them. Its wonderful!

Or, go out to the lake and go waterskiing or jetskiing. :D

:)

ow.

2009-07-02T18:21:32Z

dear f-list.

dont ever travel to countries where you are required to get rabies shots.

and try not to get rabies.

the shots HURT LIKE A MOTHERF***ER.

thats all :)

<3

xxxNell

sorry but...

2009-06-30T04:59:29Z

ok, i need to vent. it may be short, but its a vent nevertheless.

i HATE people who say you can trust them, who say they wont tell anyone else what you just said, and then they turn right back around, and not ONLY do they tell people what you just said, they skew the truth as well, so you are made to look like a terrible person.

i also hate people who are drama whores, and whine and complain and make you sound like the bitchiest person ever, when they're just as much at fault as you are.

its people like that who are my reason for my recent major trust issues. i've found that of all my friends, i can really only trust the ones im closest to. almost everyone else are lying, cheating scum. and really deserve a good punch to the nuts.

ok, thats my rant for now.

ps- this has nothing to do with anyone on here, promise :) i love you all dearly, so no worries :)